| Van Helsing will not blame meI have had so much... 877 |
[Jan. 27th, 2010|02:08 am] |
Van Helsing will not blame meI have had so much trouble and anxiety of late that I feel I cannot bear more just at present
I suppose a cry does us all good at times, clears the air as other rain doesPerhaps it was reading the journal yesterday that upset me, and then Jonathan went away this morning to stay away from me a whole day and night, the first time we have been parted since our marriageI do hope the dear fellow will take care of himself, and that nothing will occur to upset himIt is two o'clock, and the doctor will be here soon nowI shall say nothing of Jonathan's journal unless he asks meI am so glad I have typewritten out my own journal, so that, in case he asks about Lucy, I can hand it to himIt will save much questioning-He has come and goneOh, what a strange meeting, and how it all makes my head whirl roundI feel like one in a dreamCan it be all possible, or even a part of it? If I had not read Jonathan's journal first, I should never have accepted even a possibilityPoor, poor, dear Jonathan! How he must have sufferedPlease the good God, all this may not upset him againI shall try to save him from itBut it may be even a consolation and a help to him, terrible though it be and awful in its consequences, to know for certain that his eyes and ears and brain did not deceive him, and that it is all trueIt may be that it is the doubt which haunts him, that when the doubt is removed, no matter which, waking or dreaming, may prove the truth, he will be more satisfied and better able to bear the shockVan Helsing must be a good man as well as a clever one if he is Arthur's friend and DrSeward's, and if they brought him all the way from Holland to look after LucyI feel from having seen him that he is good and kind and of a noble natureWhen he comes tomorrow I shall ask him about JonathanAnd then, please God, all this sorrow and anxiety may lead to a good endI used to think I would like to practice interviewingJonathan's friend on "The Exeter News" told him that memory is everything in such work, that you must be able to put down exactly almost every word spoken, even if you had to refine some of it afterwardsHere was a rare interviewI shall try to record it verbatim
It was half-past two o'clock when the knock cameI took my courage a deux mains and waitedIn a few minutes Mary opened the door, and announced "Dr
I rose and bowed, and he came towards me, a man of medium weight, strongly built, with his shoulders set back over a broad, deep chest and a neck well balanced on the trunk as the head is on the neckThe poise of the head strikes me at once as indicative of thought and powerThe head is noble, well-sized, broad, and large behind the earsThe face, clean-shaven, shows a hard, square chin, a large resolute, mobile mouth, a good-sized nose, rather straight, but with quick, sensitive nostrils, that seem to broaden as the big bushy brows come down and the mouth tightensThe forehead is broad and fine, rising at first almost straight and then sloping back above two bumps or ridges wide apart, such a forehead that the reddish hair cannot possibly tumble over it, but falls naturally back and to the sidesBig, dark blue eyes are set widely apart, and are quick and tender or stern with the man's moodsHe said to me,
"MrsHarker, is it not?" I bowed assent
"That was Miss Mina Murray?" Again I assented
"It is Mina Murray that I came to see that was friend of that poor dear child Lucy |
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