| I want to take up my life here, with our... 970 |
[Jan. 27th, 2010|02:07 am] |
I want to take up my life here, with our marriage' For, my dear, we had decided to be married as soon as the formalities are complete'Are you willing, Wilhelmina, to share my ignorance? Here is the bookTake it and keep it, read it if you will, but never let me know unless, indeed, some solemn duty should come upon me to go back to the bitter hours, asleep or awake, sane or mad, recorded here' He fell back exhausted, and I put the book under his pillow, and kissed himI have asked Sister Agatha to beg the Superior to let our wedding be this afternoon, and am waiting her reply?"
"She has come and told me that the Chaplain of the English mission church has been sent forWe are to be married in an hour, or as soon after as Jonathan awakes
"Lucy, the time has come and goneI feel very solemn, but very, very happyJonathan woke a little after the hour, and all was ready, and he sat up in bed, propped up with pillowsHe answered his 'I will' firmly and strongMy heart was so full that even those words seemed to choke me
"The dear sisters were so kindPlease, God, I shall never, never forget them, nor the grave and sweet responsibilities I have taken upon meI must tell you of my wedding presentWhen the chaplain and the sisters had left me alone with my husband--oh, Lucy, it is the first time I have written the words 'my husband'--left me alone with my husband, I took the book from under his pillow, and wrapped it up in white paper, and tied it with a little bit of pale blue ribbon which was round my neck, and sealed it over the knot with sealing wax, and for my seal I used my wedding ringThen I kissed it and showed it to my husband, and told him that I would keep it so, and then it would be an outward and visible sign for us all our lives that we trusted each other, that I would never open it unless it were for his own dear sake or for the sake of some stern dutyThen he took my hand in his, and oh, Lucy, it was the first time he took his wife's hand, and said that it was the dearest thing in all the wide world, and that he would go through all the past again to win it, if need beThe poor dear meant to have said a part of the past, but he cannot think of time yet, and I shall not wonder if at first he mixes up not only the month, but the year
"Well, my dear, what could I say? I could only tell him that I was the happiest woman in all the wide world, and that I had nothing to give him except myself, my life, and my trust, and that with these went my love and duty for all the days of my lifeAnd, my dear, when he kissed me, and drew me to him with his poor weak hands, it was like a solemn pledge between us
"Lucy dear, do you know why I tell you all this? It is not only because it is all sweet to me, but because you have been, and are, very dear to meIt was my privilege to be your friend and guide when you came from the schoolroom to prepare for the world of lifeI want you to see now, and with the eyes of a very happy wife, whither duty has led me, so that in your own married life you too may be all happy, as I amMy dear, please Almighty God, your life may be all it promises, a long day of sunshine, with no harsh wind, no forgetting duty, no distrustI must not wish you no pain, for that can never be, but I do hope you will be always as happy as I am nowI shall post this at once, and perhaps, write you very soon againI must stop, for Jonathan is wakingI must attend my husband!
"Your ever-loving Mina Harker
LETTER, LUCY WESTENRA TO MINA HARKER
Whitby, 30 August
"My dearest Mina,
"Oceans of love and millions of kisses, and may you soon be in your own home with your husbandI wish you were coming home soon enough to stay with us hereThe strong air would soon restore JonathanIt has quite restored meI have an appetite like a cormorant, am full of life, and sleep wellYou will be glad to know that I have quite given up walking in my sleepI think I have not stirred out of my bed for a week, that is when I once got into it at nightArthur says I am getting fatBy the way, I forgot to tell you that Arthur is |
|
|