| Jan. 16th, 2004 12:12 am I'm sick im whiny and my day sucked ok so heres whats going on in my life/day. so theres this guy were kinda in a relantionship if nothing else were really good friends. any way hes going off to korea and well hes kinda been ignoring me the last couple of days and something he said to me kinda made me think hes been doing the same thing i have trying not to care to much about each other. Also my brother has given me the flu and i am sick as hell and cannot go to the doctor as i have no insurance and am boke as hell. so im feeling sad and vulnurable and then what happens my exboyfriend sends me an im. this is a guy who came into my life when i was very down and i hated myself and didnt even realize i hated myself which i think is very dangerous at least if you know you hate yourself you can look out for guys like these. it wasnt a healthy relarionship as i got my feeling of selfworth from the fact that someone actually loved me and he took advantage of that and i let him overlooking all his lies and half truths until i just couldnt anymore. ps ty hu for helping me see i deserve better. well i have to go now the nyquil is kicking in and im getting spacey so goodnite. tommorow should be fun i get to work 8 hours with the flu lifting lots of heavy stuff and dealing with rude ass people. Current Mood:  sad
Current Music: evenessence imagination/paper flowers i cant remeber the nam
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