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483 I told her there was a possibility that I... 734 [Mar. 4th, 2010|02:19 am]
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I told her there was a possibility that I might be
showing my work at a gallery in Sarasota, and she
shrieked so loudly I had to hold the phone away
from my ear
"Daddy, that's wonderful! When? Can I come?"
"Sure, if you want to," I said"I'm going to
invite everybody This was a decision I hadn't
entirely made until I heard myself telling her
"We're thinking mid-April
"Shit! That's when I was planning to catch up with
The Hummingbirds tourThen:
"I can work them both inA little tour of my
own
"You think?"
"Yes, of courseYou just give me the date and I
am there
Tears pricked the backs of my eyelidsI don't
know what it's like to have sons, but I'm sure it
can't be as rewarding - as plain nice - as having
daughters"I
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Since we added that last wing, we got twenty-two... 957 [Feb. 15th, 2010|02:26 am]
Since we added that last wing, we got twenty-two rooms now, Lord knows what the hell we're gonna do with 'em, Bill Hearn shoutsBut Ina you can't tell her a goddam thing, she figures she needs it, and we got it
Now, Bill, Ina says(A pretty woman who looks younger, slimmer, than the mother of a twelve-year-old sonThere is the thin aseptic mouth, the slightly bucked teeth, the midwestern woman's denial of juice
Well, I'm a regular as an old shoe, Bill Hearn saysThere ain't any pretense about me, and if I come off an old scratch farm, I ain't a bit ashamed of itThe way I see it a man needs a parlor or a living room, a coupla bedrooms, a kitchen, maybe a rumpus room downstairs, and y' got enough, agree with me, MrsJudd is plumper, softer, more vacant-lookingJudd and I are mighty pleased with our place in Alden Park Manor, an apartment's so easy to keep
Nice
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I remember one day when Pam was in the room - I... 807 [Feb. 13th, 2010|02:50 am]
I
remember one day when Pam was in the room - I was
still in the hospital - and she was standing by my
bedI was extremely pissed that she should be
standing when there was a thing to sit on right
over in the cornhole
"Bring the friend," I said
"What do you mean, Edgar?" she asked
"The friend, the buddy!" I shouted"Bring over
the fucking pal, you dump bitch!" My head was
killing me and she was starting to cryI hated
her for thatShe had no business crying, because
she wasn't the one in the cage, looking at
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everything through a red blurShe wasn't the
monkey in the cageAnd then it came to me"Bring
over the chum and sick down!" It was the closest
my rattled, fucked-up brain could come to chair
I was angry all the timeThere were two older
nurses that I called Dry Fuck One and Dry Fuck Two,
as if they were characters in a dirty DrThere was a candystriper I called Pilch
Lozenge - I have no idea why, but that nickname
also had some sort of sexual connotationWhen I grew stronger, I tried to hit
peopleTwice I tried to stab Pam, and on one of
those two occasions I succeeded, although
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It would be easy to kill himCroft would be at the... 500 [Feb. 11th, 2010|02:29 am]
It would be easy to kill himCroft would be at the point and all he would have to do would be to raise his rifle, take aim, and the patrol would be overHe rubbed his thigh slowly, absorbed and uneasy from the force with which it appealed to him
It was no way to thinkHis superstitious dread came back
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Dal? loved it there, but not even he stayed... 625 [Feb. 10th, 2010|03:01 am]
Dal?
loved it there, but not even he stayed long
although before he left, the son of a bitch goosed
meDo you know what Elizabeth told me after he
left?"
I shook my headOf course I didn't, but I wanted
to hear
"He said it was 'too rich' Does that strike a
chord with you, Edgar?"
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I smiled"Why do you suppose Elizabeth turned Big
Pink into an artist's retreat? Was she always a
patron of the arts?"
She looked surprised"Your friend didn't tell you?
Perhaps he doesn't knowAccording to local legend,
Elizabeth was once an artist of some note
herself
"What do you mean, according to local legend?"
"There's a story - for all I know it's pure myth -
that she was a child prodigyThat she
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Her feet were bare, her face without make-up... 280 [Feb. 5th, 2010|02:57 am]
Her feet were bare, her face without make-up and
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puffy with sleepHer hair was yanked back in a
ponytail, the way she'd worn it when she was
eleven, and if not for the fullness of her breasts,
she could have passed for that eleven-year-old
She sat beside me on the tiled lip of the poolWe
were about halfway down, my butt on 5 and hers on
FT
"You're up early," I said, but this didn't
surprise meIlly had always been our restless one
"I was worried about you
Wireman called Jack to say that nice old woman
diedIt was Jack who told usWe were still at
dinner She put her head on my
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Her feet were bare, her face without make-up... 514 [Feb. 5th, 2010|02:57 am]
Her feet were bare, her face without make-up and
762
puffy with sleepHer hair was yanked back in a
ponytail, the way she'd worn it when she was
eleven, and if not for the fullness of her breasts,
she could have passed for that eleven-year-old
She sat beside me on the tiled lip of the poolWe
were about halfway down, my butt on 5 and hers on
FT
"You're up early," I said, but this didn't
surprise meIlly had always been our restless one
"I was worried about you
Wireman called Jack to say that nice old woman
diedIt was Jack who told usWe were still at
dinner She put her head on my
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Blood continued to run from the wounds on... 843 [Feb. 1st, 2010|02:52 am]
Blood continued to run from the wounds on my
chest, either because they were slow in clotting
or because they weren't clotting at allBut my
hand was the worstAll feeling was leaving it,
and soon I began to believe I was no longer
holding the flashlight sleeve at all, because I
couldn't see it and I was losing the sense of it
against my skinThe feeling of weight in my hand
had been swallowed by the tired throb of my
musclesI had to fight the urge to rap the metal
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sleeve against the side of the cistern to make
sure I still had it, even though I knew if I did,
I might drop itI began to think that the cap
must be lost in the maze of bones and bone
fragments, and Jack would never find it without a
light
"What's
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NOTE LEFT BY VAN HELSING IN HIS PORTMANTEAU,... 578 [Jan. 31st, 2010|02:45 am]
NOTE LEFT BY VAN HELSING IN HIS PORTMANTEAU, BERKELEY HOTEL DIRECTED TO JOHN SEWARD, M(Not Delivered)

27 September

"Friend John,

"I write this in case anything should happenI go alone to watch in that churchyardIt pleases me that the UnDead, Miss Lucy, shall not leave tonight, that so on the morrow night she may be more eagerTherefore I shall fix some things she like not, garlic and a crucifix, and so seal up the door of the tombShe is young as UnDead, and will heedMoreover, these are only to prevent her coming outThey may not prevail on her wanting to get in, for then the UnDead is desperate, and must find the line of least resistance, whatsoever it may beI shall be at hand all the night from sunset till after sunrise, and if there be aught that may be learned I shall learn itFor Miss Lucy or from her, I have no fear, but that other to whom is there that she is UnDead, he have not the power to seek her tomb and find shelterHe is cunning, as I know from MrJonathan and from the way that all along he have fooled us when he played with us for Miss Lucy's life, and we lost, and in many ways the UnDead are strongHe have always the strength in his hand of twenty men, even we four who gave our strength to Miss Lucy it also is all to himBesides, he can summon his wolf and I know not whatSo if it be that he came thither on this night he shall find meBut none other shall, until it be too lateBut it may be that he will not attempt the placeThere is no reason why he shouldHis hunting ground is more full of game than the churchyard where the UnDead woman sleeps, and the one old man watch

"Therefore I write this in case? Take the papers that are with this, the diaries of Harker and the rest, and read them, and then find this great UnDead, and cut off his head and burn his heart or drive a stake through it, so that the world may rest from him

"If it be so, farewellSEWARD'S DIARY

28 September-It is wonderful what a good night's sleep will do for oneYesterday I was almost willing to accept Van Helsing's monstrous ideas, but now they seem to start out lurid before me as outrages on common senseI have no doubt that he believes it allI wonder if his mind can have become in any way unhingedSurely there must be some rational explanation of all these mysterious thingsIs it possible that the Professor can have done it himself? He is so abnormally clever that if he went off his head he would carry out his intent with regard to some fixed idea in a wonderful wayI am loathe to think it, and indeed it would be almost as great a marvel as the other to find that Van Helsing was mad, but anyhow I shall watch him carefullyI may get some light on the mystery-Last night, at a little before ten o'clock, Arthur and Quincey came into Van Helsing's roomHe told us all what he wanted us to do, but especially addressing himself to Arthur, as if all our wills were centred in hisHe began by saying that he hoped we would all come with him too, "for," he said, "there is a grave duty to be done thereYou were doubtless surprised at my letter?" This query was directly addressed to Lord GodalmingIt rather upset me for a bitThere has been so much trouble around my house of late that I could do without any moreI have been curious, too, as to what you mean

"Quincey and I talked it over, but the more we talked, the more puzzled we got, till now I can say for myself that I'm about up a tree as to any meaning about anything

"Me too," said Quincey Morris laconically

"Oh," said the Professor, "then you are nearer the beginning, both of you, than friend John here, who has to go a long way back before he can even get so far as to
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"The branch of wild rose on his coffin keep him... 205 [Jan. 28th, 2010|02:19 am]
"The branch of wild rose on his coffin keep him that he move not from it, a sacred bullet fired into the coffin kill him so that he be true dead, and as for the stake through him, we know already of its peace, or the cut off head that giveth restWe have seen it with our eyes

"Thus when we find the habitation of this man-that-was, we can confine him to his coffin and destroy him, if we obey what we knowI have asked my friend Arminius, of Buda-Pesth University, to make his record, and from all the means that are, he tell me of what he has beenHe must, indeed, have been that Voivode Dracula who won his name against the Turk, over the great river on the very frontier of TurkeylandIf it be so, then was he no common man, for in that time, and for centuries after, he was spoken of as the cleverest and the most cunning, as well as the bravest of the sons of the 'land beyond the forest' That mighty brain and that iron resolution went with him to his grave, and are even now arrayed against usThe Draculas were, says Arminius, a great and noble race, though now and again were scions who were held by their coevals to have had dealings with the Evil OneThey learned his secrets in the Scholomance, amongst the mountains over Lake Hermanstadt, where the devil claims the tenth scholar as his dueIn the records are such words as 'stregoica' witch, 'ordog' and 'pokol' Satan and hell, and in one manuscript this very Dracula is spoken of as 'wampyr,' which we all understand too wellThere have been from the loins of this very one great men and good women, and their graves make sacred the earth where alone this foulness can dwellFor it is not the least of its terrors that this evil thing is rooted deep in all good, in soil barren of holy memories it cannot rest

Whilst they were talking MrMorris was looking steadily at the window, and he now got up quietly, and went out of the roomThere was a little pause, and then the Professor went on

"And now we must settle what we doWe have here much data, and we must proceed to lay out our campaignWe know from the inquiry of Jonathan that from the castle to Whitby came fifty boxes of earth, all of which were delivered at Carfax, we also know that at least some of these boxes have been removedIt seems to me, that our first step should be to ascertain whether all the rest remain in the house beyond that wall where we look today, or whether any more have been removedIf the latter, we must trace?"

Here we were interrupted in a very startling wayOutside the house came the sound of a pistol shot, the glass of the window was shattered with a bullet, which ricochetting from the top of the embrasure, struck the far wall of the roomI am afraid I am at heart a coward, for I shrieked outThe men all jumped to their feet, Lord Godalming flew over to the window and threw up the sashAs he did so we heard MrMorris' voice without, "Sorry! I fear I have alarmed youI shall come in and tell you about it

A minute later he came in and said, "It was an idiotic thing of me to do, and I ask your pardon, MrsHarker, most sincerely, I fear I must have frightened you terriblyBut the fact is that whilst the Professor was talking there came a big bat and sat on the window sillI have got such a horror of the damned brutes from recent events that I cannot stand them, and I went out to have a shot, as I have been doing of late of evenings, whenever I have seen oneYou used to laugh at me for it then, Art

"Did you hit it?" asked Dr

"I don't know, I fancy not, for it flew away into the wood Without saying any more he took his seat, and the Professor began to resume his statement

"We must trace each of these boxes, and when we are ready, we must either capture or kill this monster in his lair, or we must, so to speak, sterilize the earth, so that no more he can seek safety in itThus in the end we may find him in his form of man between the hours of noon and sunset, and so engage with him when he is at his most weak

"And now for you, Madam Mina, this night is the end until all be wellYou are too precious to us to have such riskWhen we part tonight, you no more must questionWe shall tell you all in good
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When I got on the coach, the driver had not taken... 705 [Jan. 27th, 2010|02:14 am]
When I got on the coach, the driver had not taken his seat, and I saw him talking to the landlady

They were evidently talking of me, for every now and then they looked at me, and some of the people who were sitting on the bench outside the door--came and listened, and then looked at me, most of them pityinglyI could hear a lot of words often repeated, queer words, for there were many nationalities in the crowd, so I quietly got my polyglot dictionary from my bag and looked them out

I must say they were not cheering to me, for amongst them were "Ordog"--Satan, "Pokol"--hell, "stregoica"--witch, "vrolok" and "vlkoslak"--both mean the same thing, one being Slovak and the other Servian for something that is either werewolf or vampire I must ask the Count about these superstitions

When we started, the crowd round the inn door, which had by this time swelled to a considerable size, all made the sign of the cross and pointed two fingers towards me

With some difficulty, I got a fellow passenger to tell me what they meantHe would not answer at first, but on learning that I was English, he explained that it was a charm or guard against the evil eye

This was not very pleasant for me, just starting for an unknown place to meet an unknown manBut everyone seemed so kind-hearted, and so sorrowful, and so sympathetic that I could not but be touched

I shall never forget the last glimpse which I had of the inn yard and its crowd of picturesque figures, all crossing themselves, as they stood round the wide archway, with its background of rich foliage of oleander and orange trees in green tubs clustered in the centre of the yard

Then our driver, whose wide linen drawers covered the whole front of the boxseat,--"gotza" they call them--cracked his big whip over his four small horses, which ran abreast, and we set off on our journey

I soon lost sight and recollection of ghostly fears in the beauty of the scene as we drove along, although had I known the language, or rather languages, which my fellow-passengers were speaking, I might not have been able to throw them off so easilyBefore us lay a green sloping land full of forests and woods, with here and there steep hills, crowned with clumps of trees or with farmhouses, the blank gable end to the roadThere was everywhere a bewildering mass of fruit blossom--apple, plum, pear, cherryAnd as we drove by I could see the green grass under the trees spangled with the fallen petalsIn and out amongst these green hills of what they call here the "Mittel Land" ran the road, losing itself as it swept round the grassy curve, or was shut out by the straggling ends of pine woods, which here and there ran down the hillsides like tongues of flameThe road was rugged, but still we seemed to fly over it with a feverish hasteI could not understand then what the haste meant, but the driver was evidently bent on losing no time in reaching Borgo PrundI was told that this road is in summertime excellent, but that it had not yet been put in order after the winter snowsIn this respect it is different from the general run of roads in the Carpathians, for it is an old tradition that they are not to be kept in too good orderOf old the Hospadars would not repair them, lest the Turk should think that they were preparing to bring in foreign troops, and so hasten the war which was always really at loading point

Beyond the green swelling hills of the Mittel Land rose mighty slopes of forest up to the lofty steeps of the Carpathians themselvesRight and left of us they towered, with the afternoon sun falling full upon them and bringing out all the glorious colours of this beautiful range, deep blue and purple in the shadows of the peaks, green and brown where grass and rock mingled, and an endless perspective of jagged rock and pointed crags, till these were themselves lost in the distance, where the snowy peaks rose grandlyHere and there seemed mighty rifts in the mountains, through which, as the sun began to sink, we saw now and again the white gleam of falling waterOne of my companions touched my arm as we swept round the base of a hill and opened up the lofty, snow-covered peak of a mountain, which seemed, as we wound on our serpentine way, to be right before us

"Look! Isten szek!"--"God's seat!"--and he crossed himself reverently

As we wound on our endless way, and the sun sank lower and lower behind us, the shadows of the evening began to creep round usThis was emphasized by the fact that the snowy mountain-top still held the sunset, and seemed to glow out with a delicate cool pinkHere and there we passed Cszeks and slovaks, all in picturesque attire, but I noticed that goitre was painfully prevalentBy the roadside were many crosses, and as we swept by, my companions all crossed themselvesHere and there was a peasant man or woman kneeling before a shrine, who did not even turn round as we approached, but seemed in the self-surrender of devotion to have neither eyes nor ears for the outer worldThere were many things new to meFor instance, hay-ricks in the trees, and here and there very beautiful masses of weeping birch, their white stems shining like silver through the delicate green of the leaves

Now and again we passed a leiter-wagon--the ordinary peasants's cart--with its long, snakelike vertebra, calculated to suit the inequalities of the roadOn this were sure to be seated quite a group of homecoming peasants, the Cszeks with their white, and the Slovaks with their coloured sheepskins, the latter carrying lance-fashion their long staves, with axe at endAs the evening fell it began to get very cold, and the growing twilight seemed to merge into one dark mistiness the gloom of the trees, oak, beech, and pine, though in the valleys which ran deep between the spurs of the hills, as we ascended through the Pass, the dark firs stood out here and there against the background of late-lying snowSometimes, as the road was cut through the pine woods that seemed in the darkness to be closing down upon us, great masses of greyness which here and there bestrewed the trees, produced a peculiarly weird and solemn effect, which carried on the thoughts and grim fancies engendered earlier in the evening, when the falling sunset threw into strange relief the ghost-like clouds which amongst the Carpathians seem to wind ceaselessly through the valleysSometimes the hills were so steep that, despite our driver's haste, the horses could only go slowlyI wished to get down and walk up them, as we do at home, but the driver would not hear of
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Hello, my account friends 377 [Jan. 26th, 2010|11:52 am]
Welcome to my first blog
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I should come to Exeter to see you at once if you... 986 [Jan. 26th, 2010|11:52 am]
I should come to Exeter to see you at once if you tell me I am privilege to come, and where and whenI implore your pardon, MadamI have read your letters to poor Lucy, and know how good you are and how your husband sufferSo I pray you, if it may be, enlighten him not, least it may harmAgain your pardon, and forgive me

"VAN HELSING"





TELEGRAM, MRSHARKER TO VAN HELSING

25 September-Come today by quarter past ten train if you can catch itCan see you any time you call

"WILHELMINA HARKER"





MINA HARKER'S JOURNAL

25 September-I cannot help feeling terribly excited as the time draws near for the visit of DrVan Helsing, for somehow I expect that it will throw some light upon Jonathan's sad experience, and as he attended poor dear Lucy in her last illness, he can tell me all about herThat is the reason of his comingIt is concerning Lucy and her sleep-walking, and not about JonathanThen I shall never know the real truth now! How silly I amThat awful journal gets hold of my imagination and tinges everything with something of its own colourOf course it is about LucyThat habit came back to the poor dear, and that awful night on the cliff must have made her illI had almost forgotten in my own affairs how ill she was afterwardsShe must have told him of her sleep-walking adventure on the cliff, and that I knew all about it, and now he wants me to tell him what I know, so that he may understandI hope I did right in not saying anything of it to MrsI should never forgive myself if any act of mine, were it even a negative one, brought harm on poor dear LucyVan Helsing will not blame meI have had so much trouble and anxiety of late that I feel I cannot bear more just at present

I suppose a cry does us all good at times, clears the air as other rain doesPerhaps it was reading the journal yesterday that upset me, and then Jonathan went away this morning to stay away from me a whole day and night, the first time we have been parted since our marriageI do hope the dear fellow will take care of himself, and that nothing will occur to upset himIt is two o'clock, and the doctor will be here soon nowI shall say nothing of Jonathan's journal unless he asks meI am so glad I have typewritten out my own journal, so that, in case he asks about Lucy, I can hand it to himIt will save much questioning-He has come and goneOh, what a strange meeting, and how it all makes my head whirl roundI feel like one in a dreamCan it be all possible, or even a part of it? If I had not read Jonathan's journal first, I should never have accepted even a possibilityPoor, poor, dear Jonathan! How he must have sufferedPlease the good God, all this may not upset him againI shall try to save him from itBut it may be even a consolation and a help to him, terrible though it be and awful in its consequences, to know for certain that his eyes and ears and brain did not deceive him, and that it is all trueIt may be that it is the doubt which haunts him, that when the doubt is removed, no matter which, waking or dreaming, may prove the truth, he will be more satisfied and better able to bear the
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Then I shall never know the real truth now! How... 95 [Jan. 26th, 2010|11:52 am]
Then I shall never know the real truth now! How silly I amThat awful journal gets hold of my imagination and tinges everything with something of its own colourOf course it is about LucyThat habit came back to the poor dear, and that awful night on the cliff must have made her illI had almost forgotten in my own affairs how ill she was afterwardsShe must have told him of her sleep-walking adventure on the cliff, and that I knew all about it, and now he wants me to tell him what I know, so that he may understandI hope I did right in not saying anything of it to MrsI should never forgive myself if any act of mine, were it even a negative one, brought harm on poor dear LucyVan Helsing will not blame meI have had so much trouble and anxiety of late that I feel I cannot bear more just at present

I suppose a cry does us all good at times, clears the air as other rain doesPerhaps it was reading the journal yesterday that upset me, and then Jonathan went away this morning to stay away from me a whole day and night, the first time we have been parted since our marriageI do hope the dear fellow will take care of himself, and that nothing will occur to upset himIt is two o'clock, and the doctor will be here soon nowI shall say nothing of Jonathan's journal unless he asks meI am so glad I have typewritten out my own journal, so that, in case he asks about Lucy, I can hand it to himIt will save much questioning-He has come and goneOh, what a strange meeting, and how it all makes my head whirl roundI feel like one in a dreamCan it be all possible, or even a part of it? If I had not read Jonathan's journal first, I should never have accepted even a possibilityPoor, poor, dear Jonathan! How he must have sufferedPlease the good God, all this may not upset him againI shall try to save him from itBut it may be even a consolation and a help to him, terrible though it be and awful in its consequences, to know for certain that his eyes and ears and brain did not deceive him, and that it is all trueIt may be that it is the doubt which haunts him, that when the doubt is removed, no matter which, waking or dreaming, may prove the truth, he will be more satisfied and better able to bear the shockVan Helsing must be a good man as well as a clever one if he is Arthur's friend and DrSeward's, and if they brought him all the way from Holland to look after LucyI feel from having seen him that he is good and kind and of a noble natureWhen he comes tomorrow I shall ask him about JonathanAnd then, please God, all this sorrow and anxiety may lead to a good endI used to think I would like to practice interviewingJonathan's friend on "The Exeter News" told him that memory is everything in such work, that you must be able to put down exactly almost every word spoken, even if you had to refine some of it afterwardsHere was a rare interviewI shall try to record it verbatim

It was half-past two o'clock when the knock cameI took my courage a deux mains and waitedIn a few minutes Mary opened the door, and announced "Dr

I rose and bowed, and he came towards me, a man of medium weight, strongly built, with his shoulders set back over a broad, deep chest and a neck well balanced on the trunk as the head is on the neckThe poise of the head strikes me at once as indicative of thought and
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Blind Date Event for Migrant Workers Becomes Men's Party [Jan. 26th, 2010|10:01 am]
"A blind date party for migrant workers was held at Wangjing Park in northeastern Beijing on Saturday morning, but the event quickly became a men's party because nearly all the attendees were men, the Beijing Evening News reports.

At around 9 o'clock Saturday morning, two twin brothers came to the event, which brought hope to the organizers. Gradually, more and more people came to fill in their personal information, and some even came from far away to attend. One park visitor decided to attend the activity as soon as he heard about it, and even called his family to send 20 yuan for the entrance fee.

Among the people who signed in were technical staff from factories and salespeople from supermarkets. Organizers were anxious that all the attendees were male, and two women who appeared at 10 o'clock caused excitement, followed by disappointment when they quickly disappeared.

A man surnamed Zhang told the reporter that he didn't expect too much from his future wife in terms of appearance and salary, and he is mostly looking for someone to live a simple life with.

Although the blind date party wasn't as successful as expected, the organizers will continue to hold such activities for migrant workers in big cities in the future. Migrant workers have made great contributions to the development of society and need love and warmth in the big cities, the organizers said.
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